I am needing a little Peace today. This always happens when I take on too much, spread myself too thin and then discover that stuff has fallen through the cracks. Stupid cracks. Stuff always falls down into there. Truthfully, I am not sure I am the best person at fixing cracks. Maybe it is my personality but I am the king of all or nothing, cold-turkey, off or on, over-reacting to the dropped balls by swearing to never be the one to catch them again or by going above and beyond the call of duty in an attempt to catch everything. Neither one is very healthy & I know that.
Truth is failure is part of life. Dropping balls makes us normal not deficient. The fact that my mouth is bigger than my capacity to carry everything is unfortunate but it is more about what I do with that realization now that I recognize it than over-reacting in an ultimately self-destructive way. Today Peace must come from that place of realization. From a place that shows me that my quest should be set upon living into the gifts that God has given me (& understanding what those gifts are) and not trying to shoestring other things better handled by those who have a gift for them. Maybe this is a trust thing. Maybe I don't trust in the gifts of others. Maybe I am narcissistic enough to think that I am the only one able to do a good job on something important. If I do think that way I guess that I am not alone.
Today Peace is going to need to come in the form of trust. Trust that God has the right people in the right places. Trust that things outside my wheelhouse are better left to those people who God has called to work in that venture. I need to trust that there are gifts in the community that far surpass mine in many ventures where I foolishly try to operate.
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